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akirakun0135
30 August 2010 @ 05:41 pm
You know what? No matter how much uni sucks, I'm glad for it.
I'm so glad I did marketing, meeting so many different people and I hear about all their experiences, it makes my life seem even more boring than it really is.. actually no, it just seems epic boring anyways.

But still, it just makes me ask, 'why arn't I doing all those great things?'... it puzzles me. It's not that I don't want to, but it's just the matter of time and timing.. and possibly courage. Leaving the secure and safe environment is always hard but has been always on my mind since the beginning of high school. The adventure and the mysteries I aim to endeavour. I guess the typical response is just.. 'someday'.

Watching anime and playing games like FFXIII, where characters are pitted against obstacles out of their control and finding the self-confidence and strength to overcome them, makes me reflect on examples in my life, however bland and pathetic compared to life-risking situations... yeah it just feels so boring. I probably just need to go on holidays, somewhere... like my 2 months holiday in HK, Japan and less likely Korea (because it was a tour), but for the other destinations, going alone with no plan is what I liked. The adventure, the mystery and the unknown everyday. How I miss it.
Even more, I want to go on an adventure with people, just gives it the character you need.

Every adventure needs a hero..
 
 
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akirakun0135
03 July 2010 @ 11:29 pm

So.. yet another semester of uni ends

Looking back at my previous post.. 18th of november =O almost a whlole year (almost), just shows how fast time really is.

My druid was level 50? lol.. it's level 80 now and not only that, I've wasted time on another character which is also level 80.. goddamn.

I figured during exams and other equally stressful periods when you can't sleep; I begin to think again.. not that I've ever stopped. No, I don't think I've ever.. As everyone grows older, what has become of us? I don't believe where I am at this very moment was anywhere where anyone would expect.
I was meant to be an athlete, an actor, an artist, a computer technician, a sportsman.. all those expectations, yet I've drifted away from what I used to be. Nonetheless, I believe I always try to keep true to myself.. whoever I really am. But in reality, I guess it's not true. Alot of things have changed since university, not to mention in the natural course of life. New people come in, old people leave... but I can't put it out of mind that negligence is definitely part of it. Drive is the cause, something I find is difficult to obtain now.. and I wonder; is it because I am totally satisfied from the deviation of what I was meant to be or thought I could be? Definitely not. It's just to prove that nothing can be planned and I still don't plan on answering the question; what am I going to do in the future. I just don't know.

Still, to this very moment, everyone whose been a part of my life, I have not forgotten. Just this post is a statement to how I cherish each person and their impact on my life. They shape the things I believe, the things I do and the things I like. There are numerous examples. However, as time passes and people pursue their own dreams, it is saddening that it is not like everything we had before. Even so, things that people have told me... I have not forgotten. Their voices echo in my head, recalling memorable moments... Things they've said.. Things I'VE said. I've said alot of things... things which seem possible at that time but of course, time leaves nothing for the dreamer. For that, I apologise. But not only for that, for the silence too. Sometimes I feel like I should do something, but I have not acted on those urges... leaving the bitter taste of regret.

However, like a great man once told me, true friends are forever. Friends that you have not spoken to over a span of years and get together, or friends that have you have in your life the whole time. It's just the period in between that saddens me.

Furthermore, I can't help but think of what some other people have become. It is quite strange and in turn, mysterious. Well apart from the fact that I really do have no idea.

On a lighter note, the FIFA World Cup. The month that the whole world unites to watch nations play a game of football (soccer). The unity is one of the greatest parts I believe. I remember, it was only 2 World Cups ago when I began to watch it. Unfortunately Australia was not qualified and, of course, I was not very accustomed to world tournaments. But I remember, the reason why I began watching... and it was all because of friends... no, just one good friend. And thinking back, it just makes me laugh. Also unfortunately, Brazil has been knocked out of the 2010 World Cup by the Netherlands, Australia failed to crawl into the last 16 and while other big teams also failed to live up to their expectations... Now doesn't that sound familiar.

In the near future, I'd be twenty... wow twenty. The number is alot but the feeling will be the same... The same feeling that I should go back and relive the good old times but of course it's not possible. They will remain with me in memories, whispering and haunting me in my sleep, reminding me. All I can do is ignore it... and maybe someday I'll forget.

And if that happens...who knows what I have become.
 


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akirakun0135
18 November 2009 @ 07:56 pm
Not dead not dead~

So I have decided to put in another effort to keep this alive.. well sooner or later these holidays I'll start running out of thigns to do and begin to complain so I guess this is what that's for.. but so far the holidays have been pretty eventful. Time to present my recent GAMES =D =D

12/11/09 - Revived in the World of Warcraft! (Started playing again after buying a 2month game card because of Garson!)
14/11/09 - Reached level 50!! - Tauren Druid
17/11/09 - Played M9 lazer tag for the first time


Pretty exciting eh?
Yeah Alex's lazer tag bday outing was pretty fun considering I haven't been lazer tag as I slept in on an previous occasion which I could have gone to a lazer tag. In both of the two games we played, I came second in my team as Zeron and Icefury =D losing one game (overall) and winning the second by 400 points =O =O Yeah close stuff

So any new news?
I get emails from Square Enix Europe occasionally about new games and annouocements. And recently one included an annooucement about FFXIII! Watching the video, the release date is OUT!


9 . 3 . 2010! remember it well =)


Yeah.. apart from that I have accomplished any milestone today
18/11/09 - Updated resume and ready to job hunt! + Updated blog, keeping it alive

I'm sure I deserve an achievement for that =D

So I'll leave it here and go back to catching up to Garson's level 80 paladin XD

Over and Out.
 
 
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